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Happy New Year! x
So, I’m back. How’ve you been?
I genuinely do apologise for being gone so long, you know how life gets sometimes.Hectic. That’s one of the nicer words I could use. Anyways, before I get started, I’d like to give a quick recap of everything that happened while I was gone. ๐
As we all know, I’m in Year 10 now and for the most part, it’s been pretty fun. I have different classes with different people and it’s been quite eventful, each day comes with it’s challenges and I’d say I’ve done a pretty decent job overcoming these obstacles. Yes, I’ve stumbled here and there but if there’s one thing I’ve been able to understand, it’s that life will come with challenges and what you do with those challenges is what determines your next step forward (or something along those lines, idk)
I’ve been able to adapt (reasonably well) into my class and made a couple new friends. I’ve participated in multiple school events and right now, I’m preparing for January exams in 2 weeks. yikes. I’d be lying is I said I was prepared but I plan on actually getting adequate studying done tomorrow. I do hope to eventually develop a good study-life-work balance and eventually commit to this blog long term. A lot happens these days, it would be criminal not to document it.
So, why was Kayla gone for so long and what was she up to?
Well, just school to be honest with you. Tests, Tasks, Tutoring, More tests, tasks and it keeps on going in that continuous cycle. But other than that, I’ve been able to form really strong friendships with people I never thought I’d be close with. It’s really fun getting to know people and for the longest time, I was scared to open up to certain individuals in fear of what they would think of me. Why, you may ask? I still to this day have no idea.
It’s not always been sunshines and rainbows though, I’ve struggled a bit academically and it’s really been messing with my head. Not saying I’m failing; although, failure is subjective, I’m just really trying to adapt to the current pressure I’m facing in my studies and day to day life. There’s a lot going on right now and juggling my school life plus my social life, trying to stay in touch with my family and most importantly God, while still trying to stay consistent with this blog is NOT an easy task. But we do it regardless.
Right, let’s get into it.
So a couple of school events that occured:
I went for this school leadership event that my school hosts every year.I’d elaborate on this further because it was pretty fun but at the same time probably one of the worst experiences. I’ll explain why. Or maybe I won’t. You really never know when it comes to me.
At the leadership camp thing, I made a few friends, learnt a few things and had a pretty fun time but at the same time I was struggling a bit. I wasn’t familiar with my environment and everything was very unusual to me. For starters, that was probably the longest I had gone without any form of communication with the outside world (mind you it was literally only 2 nights). I was getting overstimulated very often and the tiniest things would set me off. On top of that, my team members were.. to be honest, they were actually decent, I just wasn’t in the best place mentally and wanted to leave.
Also… I kinda. Stopped? Being close with a few people. I’m still somewhat close with them but it’s most definitely not the same way it used to be before. Reason being that I trusted someone and that trust was broken inevitably. Will I ever trust this person again? Probably not. But it’s honestly fine. Maybe they were just struggling as well…
After leadership…
A lot of things happened after this camp.
Firstly, I was still drained from this camp so I needed a couple of days to myself. It was a bit refreshing after a while and I slowly got over the “betrayal”, if you can even call it that.
I might make an actual longer vers. of what happened at leadership in a long form video but that would take a while and I’m lowk getting tired of writing this much even though there’s a LOT I need to cover. But, I need to get this blog out in the open as soon as possible so I’ll end things here.
Might do a leadership training blog documenting the ENTIRE weekend as well as the aftermath because if I’m being completely honest it was an extreme eye opener for me. And after that, I’ll just continue uploading regular blogs I guess. Like the independence blog I was going to do, as well as structured tests and how I prepared and finally and most importantly, the 2025 christmas show. Then again, I don’t know when this will come out but let’s pray it’s soon because I have exams coming up and I really need to study.
Until next time!